sad la

im gg to rmb this day..
the day when i gt to 'KNOW MY PARENTS BETTER'..
ive seen through them...
and i was so shocked that they actually said such hurting words to me..


afternoon went shopping wit my frens..
bought a belt that could complement my top for new year..
when i reached home..
i tried on my belt and ask her whether it was nice..
then i started telling her that i was considering about going to poly..
and those hurting words shot off her mouth..
"u wanted to go poly is bcux u wanted to buy new clothes and doll up urself rite?"
i flared up..
is this how she think of me?
i shouted right into her face and told her that that idea had never even crossed my mind b4..
she dun believe and started saying more nasty things..
my dad was bewildered at first..
but when he knew wad the commotion was about..
he agreed wit her and say that they will never be wrong..
cux no one will know me better than they do..
apparently they are wrong..
hot tears jux flowed down my cheeks and those word jux kept ringing in my ears..
i pointed my finger at him and shouted that thats nt the reason y i wanted to enter poly..
he wanted to hit me..
for being so rude to him..
but i jux dun care..
he started his reasonings and stared fiercely at me..
i nt even a bit afraid and stared bac..
cux i knew that im nt in the wrong..


i couldnt take it anymore and told him..
if u dun wan to support me,
then so be it..
i will earn my own fees..


pple reading my blog may feel that im being petty, unfilial or rude to my parents..
but i dun care okie..
hu will understand how i am feeling now?
i jux cant stop crying..
one sentence from them...
and it already hurt me so much..
i hated being maligned..
and they dun even feel a bit sorry about wad they had said to me..
I SWEAR..
those idea really didnt crossed my mind..
but they dun believe..


they wanted me to go jc is bcux they wanted to boast around to relatives and friends..
that their child is clever and capable of entering a jc..
they deny it..
but we knew it in out hearts..
the moment i got bac my results..
he started calling everyone to tell them..
so wad does that mean?


i really dun like jc life..
im having a hard time coping..
but hu noes?
things jux doesnt work well for me in ajc...
in ajc..im jux so damn down on my luck..
they jux treated it as an excuse and didnt even show abit concern for me..
Temasek poly offered the course i wanted..
but wad they sae?
its useless..
no prospects..
no future..
be a doc..but nv be a vet..
cux being a doc gt higher pay and more gaurantee..
so go JC best..
then can go U..
they think im really so stupid?
even a 3 year old kid wun believe la..
use this to pacify a kid okie..
but nt me..
and one more thing..
i hate being manipulated..
so dun interfere wit my stuffs..


i can be good at times..
but if u ever angered me..
or do things at i hate..
dun blame me..
for turning nasty..
i mean wad i say..
'an eye for an eye'
thats my 'motto'


omg..my eyes are swollen..
like a goldfish?
my eyes natural big leh..
can make them small sometimes oso good..
lol..
kk..nt funny..
entertaining myself..


but seriously..
they hurt me badly this time..
heart is bruised... *sob*