..

life is miserable..
i dun tink im living..
im merely existing..for the sake of the damn A's..
i know its unhealthy..
but i jux cant stop comparing myself with others..
and feeling more and more stupid day by day..
maybe ive really bcum dumb ever since i enter AJC..
CCA is tiring.. homeworks are stressing me out..

life is no longer happy and worth looking forward to..
imagine a person's tears flowing down her cheeks suddenly while having her meal...
and crying quietly during her shower..
can see how depressing her life is..

on tinking bac of sec school life..
yea..tears in my eyes...
i missed it so much...
my second family..
missed my friends whom i can confide everything with..
tok wadeva i want..
really laugh heartily out..
making fun of others and getting made fun of..
the memories were so precious..

here in AJC, everthing is opposite..
i dun feel like toking to anyone. sometimes.
laughter of happiness..like real
people here are different..
friends whom do not really click...
clique is jux a name...
jux find the feel different...
the harmony, care and love..
sorry but i cant feel it nor see it..

sometimes i find it better be alone..
to be isolated from this devil world...