sucks

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gt back chem CT1 results today.
on looking at the marks
heart felt hot suddenly..accelerated for a while and i sighed..
i failed.. nt within my expectation.
disappointed..wanted to cry.. but forced myself to hold back the tears..
felt the same feeling as when receiving my sec4 geo prelim results..
failed that time too..
and i jux rmb that i cried and cried...

felt v angry and green..
with myself as well as the pple around me..
studied so hard..
read and read..memo and memo..
when taking the test.. i forgt everything again.
gt the concepts right, but ans wrong.
jux feel like throwing the books out of the window and jump down with the books..

yea. its unfair to me..
i hate this world.
success is never near me..
i tried hard, i worked hard..
but it jux gt futher and futher away from me..
trying to be optismistic..but its difficult u know..
esp seeing myself failing all the tests despite working hard..
im starting to dislike the word 'jiayou'....
really disheartened.. sad... regretful..
since the day i entered AJC.

this school is troublesome and irritating.
the principle, the teachers... the school.
how i wish i dun need to squeeze with pple on the MRT in the morning
and c the ugly and inconsiderate side of singaporeans...
the damn it timetables which are extremely unfair to the mixed classes..
pure classes, count yourself lucky..
teachers whom i jux wan to give a kick on their butts.
it is super unfair..
unfair unfair unfair!!!
Mr William Tan said not to make comparisms...
but this is abit extreme ehs..

getting depression soon i guess..
noticed that my temper gt worse each day..
irritated easily by trival matters.
then started crying..
need find ways to vent my griefs and anger.
if nt im gg to explode soon..

fuck.